I came up with the concept of this website because when I was traveling over spring break I had times when I was very uncomfortable. I crossed the boundary outside of my comfort zone. I knew going to Europe would take me outside of my comfort zone, but I couldn’t even imagine the kind of zone I would be in. Everyone always told me, “You’ll be fine! Everyone speaks English.” While that is true, it doesn’t mean that they always speak it. I walk around and all I hear is a sort of jibberish of the Nordic and Germanic languages. Not once have I heard a Romance language (which I have studied and feel somewhat more comfortable with).
Someone will try speaking Danish with me and I’ll say something along the lines of “I don’t speak that,” “I speak English,” or simply “What?” It feels embarrassing and I feel helpless. I can’t tell what anyone is saying. I can only hope that they aren’t gossiping about me.
Coming to the Roskilde festival, I feel so lost. This is unlike anything I could have imagined. It’s what I imagine Burning Man to be kind of like. The festival is its own city and people camp out in their neighborhoods and just sit outside their tents drinking and chilling. People have speakers everywhere; there’s a lot of soundbleed. People have themed camps, some more decorated than others. There are flags of all sorts everywhere. I found a confederate flag, which made me upset a bit. I found a USA and a Mexican flag, but that camp was filled with neither Americans nor Mexicans.
Fourth of July is coming up. I’m feeling real homesick. Who will get excited with me? Will I even celebrate? I’m starting to miss American food, especially Tex-Mex. I miss spices. I miss English being the norm. I miss my American traditions.
I miss bass music and crazy electro music. I can’t quite describe what people play here. They play everything. I went to a major lazer themed party at a camp. That was fun.
I’m tired of feeling alone and lost. I am way out of my comfort zone, it’s getting easier but it’s still hard and uncomfortable. I can only hope this unsettling feeling subsides and I can enjoy myself the rest of this week.